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Wedding Dress...

LOVE...

Never should i let u go
Never find myself at home
Ever since that day u walked
Right out the door
You were like my beating heart
That i. i can"t control
Even though we grown apart
My brain can"t see to let u you go

Thinking about old times
When u keep me up late at night
We use to mess around.
Laugh and play fuss and fight.

I guess it"s too late
I"am dance this dance alone
This chapter is done
And the story goes on.

Baby
Can"t believe that you are not with me
Cause you should be my lady
All i want us to set your heart free.

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me you won"t let anyone hurt u
Remember i will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you.

In that wedding dress
Oh see you at that wedding dress.

You got control of me
And i. i can"t explain
Someone call 911 Emergency
Before i go insane.

Since you moved on
U took a piece from me and give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, Heart attack.


We would always fight and fuss
And it seems nothing was right
But i loved you girl and you were my world
But you never trust this guy.

And i just don"t get
When you acting like some other person
But i try my best to hold on
At the times when it ain"t working.

And every time that you say it over
It break my heart and don"t noe why?
Cause you done it a lot times
In the past and i get back up and try.

How could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the left
And i left imperfect smile..

My brain just can"t forget you
Your image and figure playing around me
The way u walk.. your shadow

I find alternative way
To help me but in the end i still love ue
No matter how i"m try
U always be my heart..

Everything Gonna Be Alright

Phantom.Ciel

Love

I use to be alone in this reality world..
We born alone to this world
We will leave this world alone
Till i find my friendship-family love...
But i lack in relationship..
To support and comfort me to continue my journey and daily activities..

She is a star
She make me a dream and build up my fantasy world..
But in reality our world is apart..
We separate by a river..
We stand in our circle
And we saw each other day by day..
But she don mind..
Cause she got a wing...

My road use to be dark and haunt
I found my Juliet..
Now my world is light up
Cause the love she gave..
She come from a different place.
I come from the other side.
Although we not the same..
But i ...... her
My silence is open and cure

Phantom.Ciel

True happiness is to enjoy the present, without anxious dependence upon the future, not to amuse ourselves with either hopes or fears but to rest satisfied with what we have, which is sufficient, for he that is so wants nothing. The great blessings of mankind are within us and within our reach. A wise man is content with his lot, whatever it may be, without wishing for what he has not.

From:Seneca

1-03-2010

Phantom.Ciel

i won"t forget what happen today...1-03-2010...
Firstly...i got selected by teacher...to representative in badminton team....^.^
A kind of happy...and i will try harder to raise up my performance..^.^
And my double player partner is ProAlex...

Secondly...i could not forget today incident..is..
I read my SPM target 2010 in front of my friend...
Although is just a few minute i happy that i given a chance to spoke out
My ambition and aim...My friends listen to it and not laugh for it...
Since i not a very excellent student..score straight A in all examination...
In a nutshell..u guys giving support to me secretly
And hope that we can success in our life together...
I won"t disappointed u guys in SPM

Thanx my classmate...i LOVE U guys...

Thirdly... thanx for Butterhua and Sherilyn Goh...
Who reserve place for me during biology subject in Martin..
Thanx for believe that i not a lazy prefect.
Trust that i will attended the additional class..
Thanx*.*

2010

Our Form 5 Life eventually begin ...
This year is the stepping stone for all of us form 5 student
Our future,life and hopes...
Will be decide in this year {SPM}..
The first day of school is quite bored???or excited....
I'm wear my blue colour long sleeves uniform..
Which all prefer is told to wear a formal shirt at that day
With a tie and our school badge...
Tidy and clean

Early morning already small droplet rain.
Make me lazy go to school early..
But what can i do?? First day school
Have to lolz....^^
6.45am i reach to school front gate.
From what i saw
Quantity of form three student is increase compare to 2009
Amazing and surprise our school canteen is transform...
To more high standard for our SMK Cochrane Perkasa students..
Our high tea^^
[Boss satu mocha ice-blended]...^^
Various of foods and drinks is sold at our school canteen..
Mouth-Watering...*&.&*
Seriously chocolate flavor WAFET is taste bad lolz^^then peanut
Less teachers attend the class..
If got also give us some lecture and advice
Cause SPM what can we do ..

School finished at 1.05pm today..
Sherilyn and Ah Niew company me to Martin..
Add one more subject {Biology]
Weak in Chemistry,Biology and Add.Math
Later we have our lunch at chat room..^^

Luster
Luvz
Tendou
Pet pet Lim
Sherilyn
Niew
Me[Phantom]
Jie ye
Jia yee
Taiko

After finish lunch 5 of them took a rest in my house.
Cause later we have additional class for 2 hours 30 minutes..
To rest, sleep and gaming{luster and pet pet Lim]{Dota}..
Luzx.Niew.Sherilyn and Me rest on sofa..
What a cute face they have^^
First time my friend have a rest in my house
Especially girl..
Is my pride...lolz^^
What a memories i have today
A cute friends...
Laughing..
Joke..
Sitting together..

Ok i end my blog here

Phantom.Ciel

Year 2010
New image.new style.new aim
new life.new ambition
Bad habits die fast
Spm come lah
5s1
U are the best of the best...^^

With determination and hard working
I believe i can do it.

我沒有足夠的時間...

Time is flowing and i still don left much time..
I really fall for it.what should i do...

Love is swift.pious.joyful.generous.patience.strong.faithful.long-suffering and courages..
What phenomena can explained LOVE..

Since very long time ago,people have search meaning of Love.Even the great philosophy their great profound definitions..could not fully touch the essence of Love..

".Love is the first feeling u feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way.."

".When someone loves you.The ways he/she says your name is different,You know that your name is safe in your mouth."

".Love is when girl puts on perfume and a boy start choose his cloths wisely and they go out smell each other.."

".Love is someone hurt u..And u get so mad but u don't yell at him because u know it would hurt his feeling but in deeply u hope he will treat u better next time.."

".Love is makes u smile although u exhausted and tired.."

".Love is when you kiss all time.Then when u get tired of kissing,u still wan to be together and talk more.."

".Love is hugging,Love is kissing and Love is saying no...Love would not appear by conducting experiment..."

''.Love is when u tell a guy you like his shirt,then he wears it everyday.."

"..Love is when together your heartbeat raising...when u hug each other u feel sense of relief.."

I don't have much time left..
That feeling is hunt down me..
I care for u but i can't show it..
I miss u but u don't know it..
I fall for u but i can't stop it...
"..Knowing LOVE is suffer and pain why human still fall in Love..
In the end all people will lonely.."

"..When you love somebody.your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out from u.."

My Holidays...

Hmmm.......
Already few days i not uptade my blog and pay visit on friend post...
Cause Hari Raya so extremely sorry to moo
Cause not publish a comment on your post...
Ok

So many friend sms me and ask these questions...
1.)How your holiday going??
2.)Do you enjoy your holidays

And Final

3.)Anything special occur when celebrating your raya.....


And my answer is Yes...Yes...Yes....

Something just happened in my hometown...
This event or also call incident give me big impact on my life..
Hmm....
It is inevitable for things such as died
Is hunting us wherever we are..
But i can't tell u wat really happening....
Is something scary???
I say no
If i spoke out
u guys will having nigthmare in your dream..
So please don't ask ...
Let me keep it as secret....
Shhhhh..!!!!
Surrounding is forcing us to be mature to accept this world...
Thanx to ALLAH for guided me to the path of heaven...
Now i being more mature leh..

Life is not boring...
Just enjoy wat u do to the max....
School is gonna reopen soon...
And schedule will be the same as before....
Final examination is coming....

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass,
it's about learning to dance in the rain.
Patience will turn anger to sweet..

I will not hesitate to take my steps...

Ciel PhantomHive

....::::{Checkmate}::::....

Rules hold no meaning in the world,
There will inevitably be knight
who break the rules and pawn who disobey orders

Troop.....Castle.....Bishop.......Knight......Queen

If u let your guard down for even an instant
You will be in checkmate..
Mistakes one move and you are died
It just like chess.

That is why i won't hesitate!!!
I will use my pieces carefully
All i have to do is survive and win the games
Using all of the pieces i need
Shadow,trick,plan and....
Strategy.
No matter how many pieces pile up
Under that throne,Once the king falls
The game is over....

I won't stop,nor regret
I make my first step forward.So

This is an order,
Never betray me,anyone but you.
Never leave my side
No matter what...

Even if i falling down and
Break that shining crown
Or uncountable corpses pile up under me
U must be next to me
Until the times comes..
U hear my last calls......

......::::{Checkmate}::::......

Ciel Phantomhive

....

Recently...
Dunno wat happen to me
Something weird about me.
All thing not act according to my plans.

If i do any mistakes pls inform or notify me..
I will try to improve myself and not try to
Embarrass me in front my friend..
No matter how intimate we are..
This considered as my warning..

Class proceed as usual and nothing special..
Biology,Physic,Chemistry and additional math
Teacher teach something new day by day
And final examination is waited us
In the end of the path we take...
About frustrated oral test..
Haizz...
I will try to improve my .
Vocabulary,pronounciation and my english essay
I miss her so much..
Just wan stare at her pair of bright eye.
My story are began now..

I put a bet on a game
With the ability and confident
I had.....
Arrogant i could be..
Lastly i lose my game..
My property
My woman
My power
All left me behind the dark corner
Try to restore my everthing
What i get is...
Disappointment, emptiness, sadness, lonely...
I had my convention with the devil..
With the condition..
I were lost my soul
My heart will sink in to darkness
But i don't care anymore...
From that time
I know...

....:::::{Something once lost u can't return back}:::::.....


Ciel Phantomhive

......:::::{Sad Story}::::.......

Here are the story i read from article
I edit something on this story
it was a sad story.
For the couple who in love..
You will shed your tears after reading this...
If u are human
Have feeling and emotion...

So please appreciate each other.
This story all about LOVE...

Here we go...

There was a Boy..There was a Girl...
Who both to shy to say....
[How much they love each other}...
He was always popular one...
She was the first one will be mention...
They saw each other at school in school..
But no one admired their love and feeling.
The girl waited on msn..
she was about to sign out when...
The boy name came out...
And then he suddenly spoke to her.....

B:Hi...there something i needed say to u...
G:Actually she replied .....i have something to say to u as well
B:I Love U...will u go out with me??...
G:The girl not believe what she reading....Of cause she replied

From that days on they did everything together..
Stick together each hour,minute, and second....
Live together happy and excited..
Both of them just living in a dream world...
Until that days the boy rang the girl....

B:Honey....i have something to tell u..
G:"What that"..replied that girl in quivering voice..
B:I moving to American and i never come back....
I will miss you like no one else...But i will love u always...

The girl drop the phone floor..and ran up to her room...
The girl stare on the moonlight..
The boy wrote a letter to her
And put under floor of her house...
The girl found the letter but.{HeartBroken}.
So she keep it at the hidden diaries....
She awoke the next morning..and the boys left a message
On the answer phone..

B:Honey..i leaving tomorow and my only {Last} wish
is to say Goodbye....take care...

Hearing the voice just ripped her heart to two...
She cant bear it and go for a long walk....
She cried that night to sleep herself....
She walked down stair a switch her {T.V} on....
To her {Horror}
{Headlines}:Plane crash horror at 5 this morning....
No one survive....
She dropped the remove control..
And left herself to a corner fir with despair...
She never granted his {Last} wish that
most hurt her....
She skipped the school that days..She couldn't
Bear the condition to see her friends....
She lay on the bed reading her diary that night..
A piece of paper fell out on the floor
The Boy letter...
She just to open it...
Suddenly that was a knock at the door...
She thought her mom came back...
She dragged to downstairs..with the piece of letter....
and opened the door...
Standing the door was that Boy!!!!.....

G:But you died on that crash!!!...she cried
B:I never caught that plane..He said..do your really
I would have left..when i knew i {Forgotten} something important...??
G:"What would that be"....the girl still is shock...
B:My letter...he say.and pointing on her hand...
G:The girl opened up the letter it read...
Don't ever lost this....Because i will coming back for it...
B:It just a excuse To Say I Love U for one last time
Before i leave....said that boy

The girl just smiled,and together they
share One Last Time {Passionate Kiss}....
and then
.
..
...
....
.....
Goodbye

While reading this story please opened up my display music...
Don't comment on this if u don't have
The feeling
{Love] and {Emotion}
I will hate it and delete...

....::::There only happiness in this world::::......
.....::::Is to love and be loved::::.....

For one last time...
In this post...

I
Love
U
{C}

{Zuzu}

Farewell..{Memories}..{C}

Lately something teribble happen in my life
This incident make me grow stronger and mature...
Recall back my past i feel that is quite funny
Friend...family
Love..hatred..
Dream...life
i wont forget wat u told me
i will remember it until my dead

In front my friend i often spoke about {c}..
All is just a dream
That is damn naive and ridiculous
I dont have the courage to say hi also..
Build castle in the air
From now on i swear i gonna forget all about she..
Still have a long stride and path i need to go toward...

Moo
Hardworking guy
Hate people who beat the bush not straight foward
But over the limited also dunno....
The person i most cared about his advise.
One word represent{Talent}...
But have bad habit and attitude i dislike not hate
Have a great and good heart...
But scare to expressed to keep itself cool like...:: {Min}::....
This make people very dulan he
Appreciate your friend
Treat they as kind as u can....


All questions has been solved
our class will back to normal...
No more hatred between our friend..^^

No matter how far i escape
pain...suffer...fact...shadow
will chasing me until my last breath...
Born special..
Experience special
My fate and destiny also will be special

.....:::::Once u lost it u cannot obtain back the past:::::....
Appreciate what u got now.....

My Birthday

The day i wish is finally came
Feels happy and nothing can described my feeling now
Go to additional class all giving me greeting and wish lo^^.....
Thanx to

Juju
Tai
Cyc
Ycy
Je
Lyn{Thanx a lot}

Thanx for the present u bought for me
I really like it
And i will appreciate very much
I will use it everyday de....

Lately our class really arise many issue and comment
But i will not interfere de
I just hope as a classmates

Study together
Laugh together
Joke together
Cry together
Is something not ordinary
Is very special we should appreciate
Our life just only a few year
Not all of us in this world can have the chance to sit down and learn something together
Friend is not a word that u always speak out loudly!!
Friend is something u should respect they and treat they as kind as u can...

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier

So Pls appreciate it meaning of friendship and your friend...

Telling the truth and honest is all solution for the questions
This is falsafah of being human in this world{Moo}...

Lyn
{here my advise for u}
Be nature ,Be happy
Smile always in your life
Stress and problem will decrease
Smile is the most effective medicine to all sick..
So smile^-^
I will happy when see my friend happy and smile..^^

One more thing i wan mention is..
{C} LOVING U IS THE GREATEST MEMORIES AND MOMENT I CAN GET
I will not stop loving u
I promise
Until the last glow of candle.....

Kuroshitsuji say
戰爭的藝術，那麼，是由五個不變的因素，
並考慮到在自己的討論，
在尋求確定的條件，獲得在外地。

Zuzu_{C}
3-9-2009
{C}

Comment About {C}...

Leng zai and Leng lui help me comment about {C}
From wat u guys see

She physique and appereance
Study
Attitude
Just comment about she{C}

Zuzu_{C}

She is very special girl that i have nvr meet in my whole life
She very difference from another girl
Cutest and smarter girl in school
She {soft+cute+polite}
Make me crazy for her
Something that i cannot described
No matter what thing happen
I will never stop loving u...
Althought she dunno who i am
So guys help me comment about {C}

I Love U
{C}
Zuzu
3-9-2009

Calm is a part of
Best strategies u can take.......

Memories

Firstly,in this blog i wish to thanx to tai
For being the first person who give me birthday present lol...
Your drawing is incredible and
very important to me
Friend and C...

Today, should i say happy or unlucky??
i left my house key at school
i rush back school just to get back that damn key
so careless haizz...
my body energy exhausted waste just for that journey
And one more thing i wan to mention is
i received rm100 from grandmother lol...hahah
Sorry ah can"t follow u guys to badminton court tomorow ...

Forget about unhappy thing
our path still long and far
we should stand and face it
Don "t escape reality...

I get 97% mark in history
The highest in 4s1 and form 4
hahhah.....
not lc ah ...
heheheh
Thanx to Mr.Kamaruzaman
who teach me history

A man wait for a girl..
At a hided place.
with hopes and composure...
But she never turn up
the boy keep waiting with patience
time flow as the waterfall
The boy walk home alone
with a long face
thinking and dreaming for that girl...
until the last step in front of his house gate
The boy try to suppressed memories of she
But the girl appearance and physique...
Appear in that man brain
Day by day it grow stronger...

I known the girl as C:

I plant a seed at the garden...
watering that plant day by day
with patience and hopes
the feeling go strong and stronger..
the man suffer and bleeding in heart
when he know that is the end
between they...

Zuzu_[C}
3-9-2009

To the person who born 3-9
Wish u happy and good luck

18-8

My birthday is approach to me day against day -_-
I so excited to figure out what present i gonna get this year lo
Mention about birthday i hear that 4s1
Almost three guys gonna celebrate birthday this month including me*-*

ycy skip addmath class today and came my house
Help me search some information

Ycy back tuition for today
Feel happy got buddy sit my beside
During biology class feel drowsy
And i not paying 100% attention to Mr.Donald
My poem for this post it waste alot of time

I make this solemn promise to you

To be your lover when you need to be loved,
As your doctor when you are ill,
As umbrella when life rains down on you,
As your shield when you need defense,
As your spirit when you are drained,
As your pillow when you need to rest,
your voice when no one can hear you,
your ear when no one will listen,
your comfort when you feel dreaming
your sunshine when darkness falls,
your answer when questions arise,
your inspiration to overcome obstacles,
your hand to hold when you are frightened,
your kiss that wakes you everyday,
Stand beside heaven door wait for your turn out ...
I loyal Prince

I am yours... all of me.
Just apire ,your smile,love as my reward

Zuzu

C

Shame

OK

First i wish to mention is i did badly in addmath{33} and math{76}
is really shame that my math just score 76

i sry that i cannot keep my promise

Tai
Min
Bro
Ting
4S1
C

in here in this post
i wish to apologize to u guys

i really regret due to my perfomance
I swear i changed after this

2.)
My birthday is near
My aunt and uncle
prepared a big present for me
But i don noe wat is it
Cant wait to look forward

I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.

Zuzu

--{Friend is source of my power}--

Exam Over!!!

Exam over now
All friend start to spam their skill in gaming such as sa,dota
And next week 4s1 result in will be declared by our teacher due to their performance on test
And i worried about bio,addmath,physic and chemistry mark
For malay,english,history,sivik,and math if cannot get a1
Dunno wat to say
Especially on sejarah i predict i will get 95 above
cause too easy
If i fail one subject dunno wat to say
No place to put my face
NEED to face moo,min,lyn,juju,bro, and whole 4s1
Especially tai i gonna suicide if fail Add math
Ketua spotcheck
Just a name to show off
In fact i never contribute to school and prefect board
Recreant in every aspect
Love,friend
Something i feel useless haizz..

Moo i get wat u means
wont let u feel a litter bit vacuous and dissapointed on me
Today almost no place to sit when we attend physics addition class
Saturday student replace on thursday cause saturday got school
But i play truant on that day
Cause need to attent economic class
Sorry oh

My poem for this post....

My best freind gave me the best advice
to live in this brilliant world

Leave no thing behind
leave fear behind
and try to take path less travelled by
First i take is longest stride
But just for umy world now is whole

love lives in my soul
not longer afraid in good-bye
u are my jewel
stone of my power and strength
You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.
My love for you is pure
it grows stronger everyday
Only this word
Can represented
my love on u

I Love u


C

The Meaning

To love is to share life together to build special plans just for two to work side by side and then smile with pride as one by one, dreams all come true. To love is to help and encourage with smiles and sincere words of praise to take time to share to listen and care in tender, affectionate ways. To love is to have someone special one who you can always depend to be there through the years sharing laughter and tears as a partner, a lover, a friend. To love is to make special memories of moments you love to recall of all the good things that sharing life brings love is the greatest of all. I've learned the full meaning of sharing and caring and having my dreams all come true; I've learned the full meaning of being in love by being and loving with you. Ok!!! i straight to the point now Exam is coming,juju is right how can am bring textbook ?? Is sound funny and cute Additional math -_- i waiting gonna kill u, eat u ,digest u and
dispose u hahha!!!!

erhh...6-8-09

Your Name

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

Enough for the {geli} stuff now i should straight to the point today

During biology lesson P.Nurul give a task for us and 5s1
Guess it wat the task?
Our senior is going to surgical operation on a frog and mouse alive!!!!!
I surprised but first thing i think about not the frog, mouse
But she ___ ....
We have a conversations for the first time^-^
During that, my face change from white to red{as apple or blood}
Your eyes so cute and bright,wish i can give u a Kiss at your forehead{impossible]
Haizz {let me keep it as memories forever}

erh...

i skip my add math class today
feel not well {cough}

need to rest again
exam is around the corner
still not yett do revision
-_-

I end this post by poems

I Will Love You Forever

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I'll love you forever
With all of my heart.

Questions

Today some people came in front of me and ask this for instant:

s:Do you recognize her?
Zuzu:Dunno

S:How can u love her without __?
Zuzu:Dunno

s.U love her even u know is hopeless?
Zuzu:Dunno

we look at each other for 2 second

I leave that place,walk around in mess room sit at a chair
Consider s questions my brain feel pain
Suddenly my tear flow out a drop and i come out with this answer

Although i dunno u
But i love u
I walk away cause that 2 second
I will save and record in my brain,heart
esteem it and appreciate
open that files when necessary
when i despair hopeless
Scare when i stalk at u
U cant's captured image
Cause that is the last year treasure that u leave to me at school magazine
I keep your beauty in my mind

I Love U cw_ .....
That is last time i
Stalk at u
Care u
Love u

Wish u happy
When u find your
Prince

Let it go not means
the end of the world
that call true love...